Jocelyn's Art and Stuff

So I got my computer back yesterday, everything was restored therefore all my artwork and pictures...

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:25:36 -0400

So I got my computer back yesterday, everything was restored therefore all my artwork and pictures were saved and I can finally rest in peace hahaha!

And with that fantastic information, I’m off to Disneyland!

Hello JM. Love your art and, as I was re-blogging the very cool 'jelly girl,' I noticed something -- your joceydraws.blogspot url (which I try to attribute all artists work to as many links as I can) is missing the 'l' on your tumblr site. It reads 'bogspot.' I usually test all links and that is when I found the error. I corrected mine. Best regards!

Wed, 15 May 2013 14:47:03 -0400

Hey thanks so much!
Also I actually moved my official blog from Blogspot to a new Tumblr now! I completely wiped it out but there should be a link there to my new one!
Thanks again for letting me know!

dvushka: My childhood friends — both of which I’ve known since...

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:09:37 -0400

dvushka:

My childhood friends — both of which I’ve known since the third grade — and I decided it would be a wonderful day to catch up at an undisclosed location in Sherman Oaks, California. And after an extremely rough patch in my life, I believed it was for my own good.

We sit at a table on the patio, order a delicious breakfast, and talk about our lives thus far. From the corner of my eye, I notice two women — clearly older than myself — glancing in my direction, laughing to themselves, scrutinizing my every movement with what appears to be disgust. However, having been victim of this kind of behavior before due to my multiracial background, I dismiss their immaturity with a smile and carry on with the conversation. By this time my new ‘friends’ have finished their meal. They stand, exchange glances, and stride toward my table with grins on their faces.

“Here,” states the first. “I want you to read this when you get home.”

“—and don’t show your friends,” the other adds, as if handing me a precious object. Both eye my companions patronizingly.

Put off by their gesture, I reply with a muffled “thank you” and watch them leave. I suppose it was my fault for opening the note the moment they walked away — as their actions triggered a prolonged silence of disbelief among our little trio. I unfold the note, not knowing what to expect. However, upon unraveling the stationary stamped with only an ‘L’ initial, I fall silent; my eyes grow wide. I am in utter disbelief at self-righteous bitchery.

So, in response to your thoughtful note; I myself will respond with the following:

Dearest Lexy,

On what planet is it ever alright to act this way?

In your years of experience, how many other women have you filled with your wisdom? While I am flattered that my face is your first priority and you can’t bear to see me with a foundation only slightly lighter than my own skintone (heaven knows it’s all my fault), I firmly believe you should be more concerned with the way you will look to your ‘fanbase’. Seeing that you are an aspiring musician, I encourage you to focus more on your career than a little androgynous girl you’ve come across at a cafe. Really, you’ve reached a new level of basic by vocalizing your opinion in writing; and have made it easy for me to reveal to the vast expanses of the web what you truly are. Having said this, I will take your advice: purchase a bit of black shoe polish and slather it all over my face in hopes of appeasing your shallow ass. And from a girl to girl I don’t know, may I advise against that nose ring. It’s looking a bit small for your massive schnozz. Also, fringes and cowlicks don’t work. Oh, and um. Lay off the autotune. All love girl, I really mean it. Find me on Tumblr / Facebook / Instagram / whatever.

Amber

P.S. Your opinion means everything to me. I’m completely clueless.

TL;DR, You’re tacky and I hate you.

Amen Amber! Seriously this is not cool, I really do hope she see’s this and realizes how uncalled for that was. She really needs to get off her high horse…

Bad day

Mon, 13 May 2013 18:23:14 -0400

I randomly started having troubles starting up my Mac, it’s a few years old and I found out today that the hard drive has been recalled and I no longer have access to it. I can get a free new hard drive, but retrieving the data is another thing… and that’s if they can even retrieve all of it. All my artwork, pictures, films, really important stuff might be lost. I never fully backed up everything, neither did I know about Time Machine. I’m so worried :(

I just got a really good screen recording software, so If I were to do a tutorial in video format,...

Fri, 10 May 2013 00:46:26 -0400

I just got a really good screen recording software, so If I were to do a tutorial in video format, what would you like to see?

Seeing that last ask answered (from bleachedsnow), I thought I'd check out your portfolio (which was quite interesting by the way). I couldn't help but go a few pages further and notice that you applied for CalArts, too. What program, if I may ask? ; ) And would you have preffered CalArts over Art Center, or no?

Wed, 08 May 2013 16:28:50 -0400

Thanks!

Yes back in 2010 when I was a senior in high school I had applied for the CalArts animation program. I went to their summer program the year before and really enjoyed it, but also discovered that animation was not what I wanted to do, but visual development was. I definitely prefer Art Center because I really do feel their Entertainment Arts program is perfectly suited for me. What’s extra nice is that it’s also not far from home!

Art Center has always been my dream school, even if I didn't get accepted this year (was accepted by USC). I have a lot of questions, but you don't need to answer all of them if you don't feel like it :) Did you go to Art Center straight out of high school, or did you transfer in later? Is Art Center generous with their scholarships? And do you have your entrance portfolio posted somewhere? I'd really love to see it.

Tue, 07 May 2013 23:24:06 -0400

Hey there!

USC is way good, and of course there’s always next term!

I did go directly out of high school. But I do suggest while you’re at USC, get some of your academics/other credentials out of the way, it’ll make things a TON easier.

As for scholarship, it really depends. I managed to get a pretty fair scholarship so school has luckily been affordable for me.

My entrance portfolio is posted I think on this tumblr actually, but you’ll probably have to scroll way way back. It’s also not the best example of an Illustration Portfolio. Sorry I wish I had a link.

draw mokie

Tue, 07 May 2013 18:31:17 -0400

Sorry I don’t take requests.

“Hold tight!” A sketch commission for Bray of...

Tue, 07 May 2013 18:24:24 -0400

“Hold tight!”

A sketch commission for Bray of herself and Jack Frost. Really adored this one and it’s possibly my favorite commission that I’ve done recently.

With this I am proud to announce I’ve finished all of my “sketch” commissions, still gotta couple more to do that are non-sketch, then I will be opening up commissions again!

Any more Art Center tumblahs you could give us links to ?

Mon, 06 May 2013 02:20:51 -0400

Sure! Here are some friends of mine the I’m enrolled with right now. I have tons of other artists that I look up to, those who have even graduated from Art Center, but I thought I’d share those who I’m schooling with right now. Enjoy!

Louie
Rose
Alycea
Phillip
Jaya
Gatz

As an artist, what's your biggest dream? :) Just curious!

Sun, 05 May 2013 22:05:00 -0400

Well I’ve always dreamed of working as a visual development artist at an animation studio, especially at Disney. But overall, I just want to be able to create, be inspirational to others and successful. I also want to make short films, possibly act and model a bit, but my main goal is visual development!

Your art is so lovely, I might just cry.

Sat, 04 May 2013 14:49:36 -0400

Aw thank you, but please don’t cry! haha

oh guise

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 12:20:33 -0400

oh guise

I got accepted into Art Center, and I am so scared to go. Any words of advice ? I'm afraid of the work load, and not being happy there for some reason. What advice would you give to incoming ACCD students specifically for Illustration ?

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 12:02:35 -0400

You should be extremely proud and remember how awesome that is that you were accepted! But I understand the nervousness. The work load is honestly not as awful as it’s made out to be, I promise. The first term is always the toughest because you’re getting used to the workload and are required to take 5 classes. With my experience so far at Art Center, I’ve realized that the most classes I can take a term are 4-5, but 1 or 2 of them HAVING to be laid back (like an academic class). You just have to learn your pace, and just go with the flow. I know many people are in a rush to get out of school, so they’ll pile the classes up, but honestly I believe it’s best to take what you can handle or it will heavily affect the quality of your work. You’re meant to learn and develop in school, so take the time you need to do so!

If you have any more questions, or perhaps want advice on which teachers to take your first few terms, please don’t hesitate to email me!

You are extremely talented, and I know that one day you'll have gone very far in life and you'l be doing what you want to in your future. I hope only the best comes your way.

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:51:38 -0400

Thank you so much, I truly appreciate it. I hope that for all of us too.

Will you go out with me?

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 02:56:43 -0400

I uh

Lesson time… I hate to be someone that vents publicly but I feel that this would be that last...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 02:13:00 -0400

Lesson time…

I hate to be someone that vents publicly but I feel that this would be that last bit of closure that I need and that what I have to say about my experience may be beneficial to those who are currently or have been in a similar situation.

My heart hurts. My heart hurts so much. It hurts due to selfish and selfless reasons. I have recently learned one of the harshest lessons one can learn when putting your heart on the line. I wanted to fix him; I believed I could mend him. I saw the potential in him, in us. But he isn’t ready. Today I now understand why.

I realized today that an immediate family member of his is highly codependent. I never fully understood the toll it had on him and how hard it made it for him to be with me. I feel ashamed that I didn’t see or understand it beforehand, but then again, he really tried to hide it. For those of you who may not know the term, it means someone who is dependent on the needs of, control of, another. They are constantly in search of acceptance; they cannot stand the idea of being alone and will even victimize themselves when in arguments. Codependency does not refer to all caring behavior or feelings, but only those that are excessive to an unhealthy degree.

Understanding the term now, I do see where it takes place with his mother. His mother is the only immediate family he has, and I know that he feels the need to be there for her, even when he really shouldn’t have to be. He is constantly guilt tripped and manipulated to do things for her when certain things really aren’t his responsibility. In the past, it really saddened me to hear him argue with her on the phone, having to lie about where he was because being with me wasn’t preferred. But I never knew how serious it all was. We’ve been a part of each others lives for 3.5 years and he’s become one of the most important people in my life. Last year we broke up due to issues related to his mother and school related reasons, but it couldn’t keep us away for too long.

Several months later we were back together, but unofficially. He was afraid to pursue a relationship with me, and I wasn’t entirely sure why, but I was so happy to have him back in my life and wanted us to enjoy each other so I didn’t question it for a long time. Things were good for the most part, but I could tell there was something up, and I was yearning the security of a relationship.

Today we decided to let each other go. For the past few months, I’ve been waiting to see if our relationship was going to be something that we can continue. But after several therapy sessions, he came to the conclusion that he wasn’t ready and that it wouldn’t be fair to keep leading me on. He feels that because of how he was raised, and dealing with his issues at home, that he was never capable of being the lover I deserved, and that kills me inside. I fell for him so fast and will always love him unconditionally. It never mattered that he couldn’t take me out every Friday night, or buy me fancy gifts; money never mattered to me, just the time I got to spend with him. He will always be considered my first and most special love. I know he felt guilty about that, about a lot of things, but he never had to.

I always believed that he was my soul mate, but after thinking about it a lot today, I believe that I am actually his. Before me, he was a very different person. Always had a good heart, always will, but when it came to dating and girls, he wasn’t the best. It was something I was always constantly reminded of by mutual friends, and it hurt because I wanted to believe that I would be different. Well, I was. I was his first love, and the first person to make him realize his full potential as a lover. I revealed a layer that he didn’t even realize he had. I brought his issues to his attention without even trying. I made him want to be a better person. And for his decision today, I’m very proud of him and have gained tons more respect. It hurts because I feel I’m losing my best friend, but maybe right now just isn’t our time. But at the same time I’m not going to allow myself to wait.

I’ve learned that it’s not my responsibility to try and fix those who can only fix themselves. Him and I both learned very harsh lessons, but we’ll both grow from them. Perhaps we’ll cross paths one day again, when he’s got his things sorted out, and when I got mine. There’s no way we’ll never be a part of each others lives, we are just so good for each other, whether it be just as friends or lovers again. I anticipate that day.

Done with school! Time to finish commissions muwahahaha

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 14:05:19 -0400

Done with school! Time to finish commissions muwahahaha

So what was the studio like? Was it as amazing as I dream it is?

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 14:05:31 -0400

It was quite cozy if that makes sense? haha
The Animation building seems quite small but definitely nice. There’s about 800 people who work there. They had a lot of Wreck it Ralph stuff up and I got to see some visdev stuff for Frozen (but that’s all I can say about that hehe). It seems like a pretty fun place to work though! The work areas are nice and spacious, there’s room for a lot of interaction and collaboration with other artists, and the break area is quite nice too haha!

It was chilly today (ﾉﾟ0ﾟ)ﾉ

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 23:54:00 -0400

It was chilly today (ﾉﾟ0ﾟ)ﾉ